Cutting off the petals

I hate YOU!

How does that make you feel?

There have been so many statements filled with hatered towards other races, religions, idealogies or just simply pure separatist acts of vanity and self love, the problem isn't with such hateful comments but with the stereotypes which are carried on by word of mouth, passing judgement over several generations of people and sometimes even commencing execution.

You may hear of words of hatered towards palestinians, and stereotyping them as a nation of hypocrits and weasels, or maybe you might hear words of discrimination about people in your own country that they're tight, or stupid, you may also hear words of discrimmination against other religions or cultures.

If you don't like this being exercized over you, DON'T BE THE ONE TO INDULGE IN SUCH CRIMES AGAINST OTHERS!

Out of Grey

I picked up the black crayon and started drawing as my teacher asked me to, i drew a pavement, a sky and a road where cars were passing with their lights on.... i used up all my black crayon, there was a sense of simplicity back then as to how i see my world, i didn't need any white crayon, as the white paper on which i drew compensated for such...
with time, i grew up, and with it my realization and conviction that nothing was as black as my crayon, and nothing was as white as paper, i understood that pavements were never as black as they seemed to be, after realizing that the color was fading due to imperfection, i later came to know, that it was because of the workers being underpaid, and the paint salesman a thief, i later realized as well that the sky wasn't as black as i thought it was, because of all the pollution and smog surrounding my polluted city caused by manufacturers who couldn't care beyond the money pouring into their pockets, ....i also realized that the decision to use a black crayon was becoming harder and harder with time, and that even the paper on which i drew wasn't as white as should be, after being made of recycled material which has been processed repeatedly to save our dying forests....
in several moments in my life the decision to use black and white crayons was becoming harder and harder as my perspective matured.... with time i needed the grey crayon over and over again...to draw the fading figures in the night, the grey pavement overrun by old unmaintained vehicles and repeatedly laid out by dishonest contractors, i needed the grey to draw the buildings with no facade due the tenants' tight budgets and demanding lives, i needed grey to draw the fading colors of our national flag, and to paint the faces of millions of us losing face as we battle through life just to make ends meet while losing every last shred of self respect along the way, i needed grey to draw our nile once pure but now polluted with gas, industrial waste and dead rotting corpses of once healthy animals grazing across the green pasture, i needed more grey crayons, but there was no more left in the market, they were all bought by big corporations and government officials who couldn't decide which side they were on, incase any of them lost along the way, they were bought by the schools to draw on their blackboards ancient knowledge by underpaid self loathing teachers who don't care less about the information they're delivering, they were bought by the newspapers to decrease ink consumption and increase the toxicity of the papers they print and the morbid news they deliver..................

i was out of ideas.... so all i did and all i could do was just buy some black paper.... some white crayons ....and drew a white candle with a white light extending in the darkness

The Evil Outside !

You may often receive an e-mail from a fellow muslim, or you may still receive it, if you're not a muslim, it usually starts like "Fellow muslims beware of the evil "west"/"Americans".....etc. "and it goes as follows:

1. they are trying to use pork/mice/dead animals/roaches/butterflies/genies/dwarfs/orcs in the meat they sell through their fast food places in the arab countries

2. they are using pork fat in the chewing gum they sell to us

3. that type of beverage has a hidden percent of alcohol

4. they have put drugs that will get us addicted to their food in their food

5. they have built a computer store in the shape of the Ka'ba' to mock us and have built some bars in their that serve liquor

6. they have taken pictures of the globe using their advanced satellite spying technology and meccah and medinah appear like two shinning spots in the middle of the darkness but the lost ones still fail to recognize

7. this tree/chocolate cake/fish/fruit/baby was found with islamic writings on him which seemed totally amazing and the lost ones fail to recognize, maybe they will be able later on to recognize such miracles and understand

8. A superstar who has converted to islam after having some sort of miracle and they put an obviously fake picture of the star in some islamic ritual or just a normal picture

9. That was a real piss off, i wanted to send a kick email to the sender and it went like this: Science has submitted to the lady with the face veil- and the story is about a lady doctor who has made research and went to a conference and spoke about her research amongst men, so i have no idea what this proves, but it was really frustrating for me to read that the writer feels she has proven that she still has a brain despite her face veil and that all men admired her courage to speak in such a conference

....bla...bla.....bla.....bla

I'd like to say first off, that i'm a muslim myself and proud to be this way, but i feel that such e-mails are a blatant ignorant perspective of the western world. The west doesn't care about stuffing pigs in our food or alcohol in our drinks, why would they when it's extra cost for them, and if they feel it is ok to drink and eat pork, then giving it to us is justing adding up to the costs of whatever they send us, which is ridiculous, i just feel that people should chill and stop such pointless propaganda, no one is after our faith, and even if their was, that's no the way to deal with it.

Some of the emails seek to prove that miracles happened to validate or re-validate faith, which to me is ridiculous because it actually shows weak faith which requires validation by materialistic proof, or the conversion of some celebrity to islam.

Please! Please! Please! stop giving the wrong impressions and notions about islam by communicating in its regard with such pompous ignorance! .... sometimes the authors of such emails include actually news articles to verify their stories, but it proves that they have poor language skills nothing more, like the story about the Kaa'ba where they say there's a bar inside that serves alcohol, they got the bar bit right but it's an I-POD Bar!

Gandhi Pills

Throghout my life i have been confronted with unreasonable aggression, hurt and just to put it simply: HATE! It has always been a dilemma to try to deal with such situations, do i come back at my aggressors with the same force? do i try to understand their reasons and motives first? do i disregard it? i have always tried to convince myself that what our parents have taught us as kids is the right road, that i have to swallow the hurt and be the more reasonable party in this situation, sometimes it was bareable, and i was able to swallow it, most other times i couldn't, i had to do something, it was like being handed a really hot plate, which you're trying to handle with the tips of your fingers and at the same time you don't want to fall or be handed over to any one else you know, how do you deal with such situations? when you can barely restrain yourself from giving back your aggressor a piece of your mind! Some people look upon this as an opportunity to unleach all their burried hurt and frustration, and that by aggreviating them their aggressor has unlocked the door to his own demise, and so they're not resposnible for whatever happens to him, and will not feel any guilt by unloading all their negative feelings unto him. Yet i wonder, what if it was all because of mis-communication, i would still like to belive that no one would approach some one he knows or doesn't know and blast off at him for no reason what so ever, there must be some reason for it, some explanation, some miscommunication, and that is why i feel we have to address the misocmmunication that happened and not the aggression itself, however, other factors come into play, other very powerful and influential factors such as diginity, pride and sense of self worth! how can you allow someone to approach your turf and break into your circle of self realization ? tat is unacceptable! i have often failed to control that bit in me, especially when i realize that the one i'm dealing with me may not share my common reasonable approach, and would just jump at the opportunity if he senses any meagre resposne to take more of my pride and protective land and add to his ego and boost it up, that is unacceptable to me! i would always tell myself i don't care about who's better then who , but in reality io do care, and i have managed to create certain feelings of satisfaction that i'm better than others in certain things which preserves my self confidence and prevenbts me from unleaching my egotisitical monsters at them! but when provocked it's very hard to control such monsters! i have been amazed with Gandhi's approach, when it comes to dealing with your aggressors, he used to claim that it was apssive resistance, but i don't share that same description, for if you break the rules of your aggressors and ignore their rules and regulations, then that is resistance, it maybe passive in the sense of not using the same weapons as your aggressors to hit back, but it definitely doesn't say just stand still while they slap you on the face and bow down to their wishes, it's still resistance but in a different way that seeks to ignore your aggressors all together, their existance, their wishes, and their objectives in hope that they we will eventually disappear themselves, but to do that you have to tame your monsters first, or maybe someone should invent a Gandhi pill that restrains all the monsters and provides you with the right peaceful solution to dealing with such threats.

Irrelevent minima

one of the Oddest things possible to happen to anyone these days, is comeing up with a good idea that actually works, don't shake your head at me, if it worked right away out of the box it was propably an "un-original idea" , fresh ideas usually come with all the abrasive packaging that usually means that it just have been chissled out of some extraordinary brain, polished ideas are well worn by the prosess of trial and error, they do work to some extent or the other "out of the box", wonder how many "fresh ideas" have i had in the last four years, not as much as i'd like i think... oh i'm not going to rant about my labotomized otherwise superb mental abilities, not this time at any rate, it just strikes me that i haven't heard or seen an original idea in quite a while now.
regardless of what feild we choose to focus on, it has appeared to some that "intellect" is not equall to "inginuity", intellect is the ability to learn things, thats also called smart, it's disterbing how many people out there equate the two totally different traits, and worst of all are those who agree with the above to go right ahead and equate Inginuity with creativity ... complete morons if you ask me, to be creative is to "create" things, .. hmmn ... so what exactly is inginutiy you ask?
i haven't got the foggiest you know ... but it is a sure marvellous display of how linguistics could make all the difference between different meanings, it's amazing how much people normally blab on using titles they hardly even know the meaning of, pretty silly, does not create a dialog, i belive it's very much like the ages old ancient trade rites, where traders would communicate and barter without knowing a single syllable of each others language, note that "syllable" is diffenet to "letter", the case in most communications back then would be to show off the most exorbient speach and body language pattern to gain more impressionability on the other, it seems that we are still practicing this fundamaental rite now, till this day i have yet to meet a person who actually knows what he/she is really talking about, absurd meanings, invariable variables and things like that are so dominant in our modern speach, it's really pathetic.
would someone correct me if i'm wrong, wasen't the perpose of language when it was first created? communication? i'm honestly not sure that this is the case anymore, or even back then, to many humans i have met, body language is the real determinate factor in any vocal display of oratory power, in other words, if he/she looks like he/she knows what he is talking about, he propably does, the fact that that thig maybe relevent, is in most cases .. irrelevent,
now take a long deep breath, try to actually absorb what i just said, it's difficult to do so sometimes, i sympathise, but i have just declared to you that all those years of earnest communication with everyone you know, was pointless...
don't look at me crosswise, that's body language again, and since i'm not looking at you i wont get it, try to actually communicate back, hold back that stream of thoughts your having, and hopfully try to put them into to meaningfull words,
that's what they were ment to do
communicate.

To smoke or not to smoke

Smoking is fun (for smokers), it relieves a lot of stress, is a way to waste time, and to some people smoking eventually becomes a friend.

A friend is someone you care about, someone you wouldn't want to harm in any way, and is someone you trust with your valuables.

How would you feel if a friend of yours borrowed your car and smashed it, slammed it, broke it, and turned it into a mess, Willingly?!

How would you feel if he did it right infront of you?! as you watched him?!.... would you be angry? what would you do to that friend of yours?

God has trusted you with this body, it's not yours! it's his!

Daddy.... are there really green monsters here?

When we were kids we learnt a lot of theoritical information that we never could make a connection to in real life, and as we grew up and started learning the philosophy of "When in Rome Do as the Romans do" we started basing our morals and ethics on the general behaviour of our surrounding environment (except with some exceptional cases).

So where do the fulltime villans live in real life? or were they in cartoons only for entertainment purposes, it turns out later that due to the lack of further explanation on what villans are, we tend to make a lot of mistakes by communicating and sometimes bonding with the wrong people, just because they don't have a tail or have two horns on their head.

We meet with villains everyday, however, unlike cartoons they aren't aware of the fact that they are really villains, they may even believe that they are the victims, and that by doing what they're doing they're just getting what's rightfully theirs, of course without honest feedback from their friends and kin, their vices begin to develop even further, i hate to think of what hitler's friends and kin were like, i don't solely blame the environment, ofcourse if the individual is self obssessed and a narcisit, that also helps the vicsous cycle.

Some examples of the villains we meet maybe an unjust boss at work, or maybe a self involved, careless and unhelpful relative or friend, or maybe they're all the characters you dislike combined (you must be very unlucky to get that though).

So, what other disconnects are there in life? let's say the simple lessons we learnt about being honest and friendly, i don't think they were very clear, i mean, look the world today, i believe a simple thing like telling your kids there's something like a white lie and black lie isn't acceptable, or having him lie about you being at home to other people then asking him not to lie to you, confuses us, and creates our inner conviction that we can always have double measures, one of which is always in our favor.

Maybe if we simply start by listening, rethinking our actions everynight before going to sleep and thinking what the people around us are getting on the receiving end, the balance of justice may start leveling back to where it should be.